Flushed

Warmth spreads across my cheeks

The color of rosiness I cannot disguise, or make excuses for

It lingers with no modesty, bragging its victory

The body has a way of expressing what one tries to hide

Wise in its function, careless in its character

The brain is useless when it comes to desire

All reason malfunctions; logic tossed out as wasted by-products with no purpose

The blood thrushes, spreading in urgency

Like soldiers marching out to war

An unstoppable force; taking no mercy in its mission

And as I place the coolness of my palm against the blazing heat

Worried my love will be exposed

I cannot help but smile…

Knowing it is you who makes me feel so alive

Smile of Deception

My eyes will not deceive my desires

My mouth will not betray the unspoken yearning

My touch will not ignite the passion that stirs

I smile, knowing my boundaries

You are the agony and the joy of my heart

Haunting my desires; lingering in my dreams

A longing lost in not knowing, but grateful for its purpose
A love that will remain merely a ghost to wander this lifetime

Never will I share all that you mean to me

No One Special

Write what you feel; say what you mean

Taunt me with your thoughts as if they don’t penetrate me

They do

Tell me your secrets; your fears and regrets

Share yourself carelessly as if I am not affected

I am

Put me on a pedestal; your place of sacredness

Keep me so high you may never reach me

Or I may reach you

Ignore that I am here; lingering in the shadows

Where no one needs to know my significance

But I know

Killing Me Softly

I wince, hearing your words, waiting for the pain

It comes

Push, push, push it away, I scream in my head

Where it goes, I do not know

I do not want to know

I am surviving

My heart sinks, I do not break

My gut coils, I do not keel over

My tears swell, I do not cry

I am surviving

You berate, I believe it

You scoff, I reflect upon it

You scorn, I stand tall

I am surviving

I am strong, I say

I say a lot of things to survive

But is a hardened heart strength?

I am surviving